If Only

(a poem I made in 3rd year college for my ex-boyfriend)

If only you listened when I had to talk

If only you held my hand when we walked

If only you've shown me that you'll always care

If only you did, then I'd still be there

If only you wiped my tears when I cried

If only you believed that I never lied

If only you knew it's only you that I see

If only you did, then you'd still have me

If only you suffered the pain I felt

If only you noticed that your stare made me melt

If only you asked if I was okay

If only you did, I'd never go away

If only you were aware of the right things to say

If only you said you love me in every possible way

If only you never did me no harm

Then I might never have ended in someone else's arms.

 

Personal Poems

A floral gift wrapper, an old notebook, a pair of scissors and a roll of adhesive - all I need are these materials and poof, I have my journal. I used to do this a lot, I mean I have like 8 journals since high school. I have a separate diary - the one with a lock. My journals are for random thoughts and some short poems I make whenever I feel like it. While I was cleaning my cabinet last night, I found some of my journals. I will share the poems I made before. 

I Love You Still

No matter how you hurt me
No matter how I feel
No matter what everyone may say
I know I love you still


I know I hated you before
And I do up to now
Because you broke my heart in two
But I still love you somehow

Now I'll step into reality
That you're not meant for me
But I know that I love you still
Whatever it may be

Now I'll be crying everynight
And I always will
Because even though I let you go
Deep inside I love you still

 Just A Friend

I love it when he smiles at me
In this world, it's only him I see
My heart skips a beat when he calls my name
I always wish he'd stay the same

I like the way he checks if I'm alright
And if I'm the last person he texts at night
My world stops turning when he holds my hand
The sensations I feel never seem to end

 So I went to tell him how I feel
That I care for him and my love is real
But the spark faded and everything came to and end
When he spoke these words "..but you're just a friend"

Goodbye 

We were so inlove
And it felt so strong
You said you'd never leave me
I don't know what went wrong

You were suddenly cold
You didn't care at all
You avoided me
You didn't answer my calls

I finally made myself believe
That things will never be the same as before
Tears still fall when I remember you saying
"Sorry, I don't love you no more."