So Near Yet So Far (A Letter To The One I Lost)

Dear You,

You probably wouldn't be able to read this but I'm writing anyway. Months or years from now, I'll look back and this letter will serve as a reminder of the time when you happened. I know this is over, I'm quite unsure if we even started in the first place. But those months when my world just revolved around you, I felt loved. Distance might have been our greatest obstacle, but we held on for almost 7 months. And those months, you made me the happiest girl in the world. Nothing compares to the "love" we both shared. You were not beside me but your voice was enough to make me feel safe. You proved me wrong when I thought princes only exists in fairytales. You cared for me too much. And I cared for you the same. Until now, honestly, I still do. As I'm making this, I'm worrying about how you'd be when I'm gone. Wondering if someone would come along and treat you the way I did or better. It kills me to say this but I really hope you'll find the one for you, even if at the back of my mind I want it to be me. But you gave up. You got tired of waiting. And I can't blame you. Maybe if I was there and you were here and you're the one coming, I'd get tired too. Or maybe I won't because I know you're worth it. And right now, I'm reading all of your comments on my profiles. What happened to us? We were so sweet then. All I could do now is just save the happy things we shared. Someday soon, I'll get over this. But I'll never forget how real this was. Far more real than all my real life relationships. I wish I could just hug you right now. But I know that if I can, I wouldn't be able to say goodbye. I hope you'd always keep yourself safe and remember all the stuff your own personal nurse told you. I love you. Like I didn't love anyone before. Thank you for the memories. Thank you for making me the center of your world. Thank you for making me laugh and yeah for making me cry too. And I'm really really sorry for everything I did that caused you pain. You didn't deserve that. You're a good man - just in a wrong place. I wish you the best in life. And as I've always said, stay the same. I hope you'll be happy. I love you. Goodbye.


Still Loving You,
Me